I was playing a game of tag during recess in 1993. (I was 6 years old.) I tripped and fell. I lost control of my speed. My head hit the cement. I was unconscious. I suffered from a coma for about 2-3 days.
"WHY?" I asked myself.
I was 16 years old. On Saturday night, May 17, 2003, my uncle killed my sister. My sister was my (first) best friend. My uncle and I always played and watched basketball together. (He loved the game.)
3 years ago, I was jealous. Because my dad always pleased his brother, nephews, and nieces. I was in anger. I decided to shove my uncle. Then I front-kicked my dad. (My dad signed me up for taekwando classes when I was a kid. I hated it.) And I felt guilty. I walked away from them. Then I held a grudge against my dad for a month.
Last November, I received a voicemail from a friend. He told me his father has passed away. His father was my tennis/basketball coach, and friend.
Welcome to life.
I write about my thoughts and ideas. I share it to you (or the reader).
I am sending you a message.
You are motivated to write now. (I wish.)
Now, I perceive it differently.
It is only a motivation to continue on reinventing myself at any time of the year. First and foremost, it is up to me. (You already know.)
I used to think a new year will change me. (I would wait, until a new year comes.)
One word: Procrastination. (Yes, I still procrastinate but it is not as worst as before.)
Today, I told my Uber Driver about this.
Then, I asked her, “How do you see New Year’s?”
”I do not start changing right when New Year comes,” she answered. “It takes time for me. Maybe 2 months in.”
Be the change you want to be. Expect failure. Whenever you are ready, start your (up-and-down) journey.
When I was growing up, I always enjoyed watching my favorite NBA player, Kobe Bryant.
Last night, we celebrated his jersey retirement ceremony.
The Los Angeles Lakers retired both of his jersey numbers, 8 (wore it from 1997-2006) and 24 (from 2006-2015).
Kobe retired at the end of 2015-2016 season. He is a 5-time NBA champion, and 18-time NBA All-Star.
In NBA history, Kobe and Dirk Nowitzki (of the Dallas Mavericks) are the only players to play for one single team for 20 years. (I believe they will be the last.)
Time flies. You already know.
Video shown below of Kobe's heartwarming speech at Warriors-Lakers halftime.
He improvised. (Not too long speech, not too short. Just right.)
During his speech, he acknowledged the past, present, and the future of the NBA. He gave full credit to the NBA hall-of-famers ahead of him, or else he would not end up being here. He was truly inspired. He was also grateful for the fans, media, and especially, his family. (The past is remembered.)
He ended his speech with words of wisdom to his daughters.
"Those times when you don't feel like working. You're too tired, you don't want to push yourself, but you do it anyway. That is actually the dream. That's the dream. It's not the destination, it's the journey. And if you guys understand that, then what you'll see is you won't accomplish your dreams. Your dreams won't come true. Something greater will, and if you guys can understand that, then I'm doing my job as a father."
What is my drive? What is my motivation?
Honestly, it is tough to get my mind fully focused 24/7.
Remember, it goes with the common saying, "Everything happens for a reason." Also, you know what they say, "Hard work pays off."
Yes, I get lazy almost every time I get off my bed in the morning. (I am not much of a morning person.) Most importantly, drinking a cup of coffee always starts my day.
We must set a target goal, or else there will be no motivation.
Yes, I am a tennis coach. For instance, I tell my tennis kids that they must get at least 10 shots in a row. (Focus on consistency. Just grind it out.) Once they do, I must jump over the tennis net.
It is crazy how most entrepreneurs find ways to work less hours, while others work 40 hours a week.
Enough with myself thinking outside of the box. Let's go back to this question, "What motivates you as a lifestyle/personal blogger?"
That is a very good question. Honestly, I do not earn money from creating and writing this blog. (When I first started this blog, I was hugely concerned about earning money as my first priority. Now, I do not care for it anymore.)
Why continue blogging, then?
A heads-up reminder: Become a better person on the coming new year. (A yearly traditional fresh start.)
Then again, I can become a better person anytime of the year. (There is no "perfect" time to wait for change.)
From the words of NBA sideline reporter/broadcaster, Craig Sager. (I agree with his quote.) At 65 years old, he died today from acute myeloid leukemia. (He ignored cancer treatment.) Importantly, he chose to live and die naturally.
Why am I writing about him?
Yesterday, I coached a group of 6 young kids at a youth league tennis. (I see them every Sundays from noon to 1:30.) For this season, it was their last day of class. (Next season, the league will start in mid-January.)
(NBA season tips off today. I felt like writing something basketball-related, even though I have no chance at all in becoming an NBA player.)
For myself, basketball began when I was in the fourth grade. My teacher offered us a sign-up basketball sheet for the 5th grade team. I knew nothing about the game. I said to myself, "Let's give this a try," then I signed the sheet. (This was one of my first moments to be a part of something.) It was a privilege.
Last night, I had an open conversation (deep talk) with my great mentor.
During our conversation, she asked me, "Do you remember Mother Teresa?"