10/2/2018: This past week, I have been slowly cleaning my sister's room. Last night, I had a dream about my sister. Before, I had many visitation dreams about her, when she was gone. This morning, I painted her closet. Tomorrow, I am gonna finish painting her room.
9/27/2018: Before, I used to worry about others too much. It would always get in my head. I worried for others because I wanted the best of them. Most importantly, it is impossible to please everybody. Also, I realized that I wanted the best of them, but it probably was not what they wanted anyway. Actually, I ended up forcing them than being kind. I cannot control somebody's life. Now, I am focused on myself.
9/22/2018: Risk, and react.
9/20/2018: I used to force people so they can tag along with me. I hated going out alone. I used to worry about what others will think about me. Now, I don't care anymore. I like being alone. When I'm alone, I can do anything I want. No time conflicts. No rush. No need to worry about the other person. For instance, I enjoyed my solo travel experience in China and in the Philippines. I'm going to see Miguel live tonight at San Jose.
9/16/2018: My appearance used to hurt me before. I had an extremely low self-esteem when I was younger. I had huge acne on my face. I was mainly focused on others thinking about me. Now, I'm mainly focused on myself. I change, so I can impress myself, not others.
9/15/2018: More possessions, more stress. It piles up. I'm slowly decluttering my stuff. I'm learning how to let go.
9/15/2018: I continue on reading and learning. I'll only learn more, if I ever apply it. Most importantly, I need to take the risk and react. Otherwise, I'll just play it safe.
9/9/2018: "Communication is key." Not necessarily. It depends if you and the person are able to friendly communicate with each other.
9/7/2018: Things change. Accept change.
9/6/2018: Expect failure. Expect rejection. This is reality. Be aware of it, and learn from it. Let the mind know that.
8/25/2018: Trust the process. Bad things can happen. You cannot control the outcome.
8/22/2018: You witness something suspicious through your surveillance camera, while you watch Netflix. You catch a man attempting to steal your car. You panic. You realize that you have to figure out something fast without using guns. You slowly take a deep breath to stay calm. You scare him away by using your other car's remote with its "panic" button. That was me.
8/20/2018: You are focused on expectation. You see happiness from others. The mind wants that. You go on sharing your highlight reel of your life. Welcome to social media. The mind wants that. This is reality. We usually chase something whenever money is involved. Imagine if there was no money in this world. My happiness is: -To keep inspiring others, such as this blog. -To continue hiking. (Before us, nature was created.) -To keep learning. -To ask, and listen. (Hear stories from others) -To have a clean heart. (Unconditional love) -To be at peace.
8/19/2018: LOVE is just a 1-syllable, 4-letter word. L-O-V-E. Truly, it has many definitions to it. We each have a heart. That is love. A travel buddy once told me, "You gotta love yourself first, in order to love her (or anybody else)."
8/17/2018: You witness an argument with disagreements on each side. It goes back and forth, like a ping pong ball. It's crazy.
8/17/2018: A good friend asked me, "What's your purpose in life? Just focus only on yourself, not others." I answered, "That's a good question. To keep learning."
8/12/2018: I have met a lot of people through traveling, and even dating. Honestly, I cannot remember all of them one by one. It is impossible. I meet somebody. We connect. That spark at that moment. Then, time flies as the relationship goes. I reach out to them. It has been different. We grow apart from each other. It just happens. No real answer in life. No regrets in life. Lastly, it's impossible to remain in contact with everybody you know.
8/9/2018: Less talking, more listening.
8/4/2018: I heard a news from a friend, relative, or somebody. I used to go on speculating about it. Speculation goes on. Gossip and drama start. Fake news. To come and think about it, I completely wasted my energy.
8/2/2018: Before, I used to change, so I can impress others. Now, I change, so I can impress myself.
7/31/2018: No need to memorize. Go on, and improvise.
7/23/2018: You are angry at somebody. You stay away. You believe you are right. Possibly, you are waiting for that somebody to apologize. You are curious about that person. Somewhat, you do care. Perhaps, you wanna know how that person is. Therefore, you try to be better than him or her. It is what keeps you going in life. That was me before. Be a peacemaker, not a winner.
7/20/2018: It's impossible to please everybody.
7/18/2018: A great question to ask anybody, and even myself is "What is important to you?"
7/8/2018: I need space. I am human. I gotta recharge. It's not you. It's me.
7/7/2018: You are what you hear and listen.
7/3/2018: When I was younger, I wanted to fit in. I was not myself. As I am growing older, I have become more open. This is my true-self.
7/1/2018: If you have a different faith and/or religion, that's fine. Go with what you believe in. I respect you. I am pluralistic. I was baptized Catholic. From middle to high school, I went to a Catholic school. I am not a fully devoted Catholic. I am agnostic. You can say what you want on that I believe in. I am not hear to preach, please, or impress everybody. That is impossible. Toughest part in every religion and/or faith is accepting each other. Comparing others religion and/or faith makes us feel superior.
6/26/2018: My cousin asked me a question, "If you were 90 years old, would you choose to have a 30-year-old body, or a 30-year-old brain?" I answered, "The 30-year-old brain. So, I can remember moments and memories to people I have connected with. Also, I can learn more. The mind is powerful."
6/26/2018: Life is an up and down journey.
6/24/2018: Things do not go your way. You want what you want, but you can only control yourself, not others. No more pointing fingers at others. For instance, I want everybody to be at peace. Another example is I am searching for the right one, but I cannot force the lady. Respect the lady. That is selfish. Realization.
6/19/2018: No whining, no complaining. Live the lifestyle.
6/16/2018: Understanding who people are, and making adjustments.
6/14/2018: You are who you are. Be yourself. Not really. You can evolve and grow, I believe in you.
6/13/2018: My good cousin asked me, "If you saw God, what would you ask him?" I answered to him, "I would like to know how my sister is doing. Is she still at 18 years old, or is she 33 years old now? Can I please see her now?"
6/11/2018: Choose sides or not. Go with what you want. It's your choice. It's your life. I used to have many enemies. I am at peace. I have a cleaner heart than ever before. Most importantly, death brings us together with sadness. Death is arbitrary, for the reason that, most people do not want to die. You born, you live, and you die. A baby is born. It brings us together with happiness. It is a cycle of human life.
6/11/2018: My kid cousin showed me her journal about family. She wrote about family consisting of a mother, father, brothers, and sisters. Obviously, she was describing her family. I slowly read it out loud to her. I told her, "Whenever something happens to you, you have your family. This is unconditional love. We are family. You are not alone.
6/10/2018: It was 11pm. Even though my Auntie looked very tired and exhausted, she had to see her patient. I told her, "You are the real superhero, not Spider-Man. You sacrifice your time to save lives. I am inspired."
6/8/2018: Judging others makes us feel better. Observing others makes us learn better. Until the day I die, I will continue on reinventing myself.
6/5/2018: This morning, I told her, "You are a great listener. You hear everybody's stories, and even their problems. I continued on telling her, "Mix it up. I wanna really hear from you. Ask, and listen." Then, I began asking her a question.
12/19/2017: The past is remembered. Live in the moment. The future is in you.
12/14/2017: Be humble to others. Do not expect anything in return. Be your true-self.
11/27/2017: Let it be. Be free.
11/2017: No "I." It is "us."
11/2017: Do not hesitate, or else it is too late
11/2017: Respect the lady.
11/2017: Ask, and listen
11/2017: I shall see.
11/2017: Make the change, or stay the same. You choose your life. It is understanding who you are.