11/24/2018 I used to have enemies. I would hate it, if enemies copied me, like the way I dressed, talked, and etc. Before, my enemies hugely boosted my confidence. I always wanted to be better than them. That was my purpose in life. If I had any problems with my enemies, I would never tell them. As time flies, the anger would build up as I kept "it" inside me. There'll come a time, when I will blow up at my enemy. That was my younger-self. For instance, I held many grudges with my friends and relatives. I would extremely snap at them. Then, hold a grudge. The hatred, and huge ego took over me. This expended most of my energy. I was exhausted. It is not worth to have enemies anymore. No winner, no loser. No more enemies. No more grudges. No more competition. No more jealousy. If anybody copies me, I am happy. I am sharing my knowledge and experience to you. That is inspiring. If you beat me in something, I congratulate you with a thumbs up, and a smile. We have different beliefs, values, and ideas in life. I respect it. I am not gonna force anybody in listening to my way of life anymore. I make mistakes. I am no god to anybody anymore. I cannot force somebody to change. Peacefulness, gratefulness, and forgiveness leads to happiness.
11/23/2018 “Gratitude leads to happiness.” This podcast episode from James Altucher interviewing AJ Jacobs is almost similar to my previous blog entries about peacefulness, and forgiveness. I learned that gratefulness leads to peacefulness, and forgiveness. Thus, gratefulness, peacefulness, and forgiveness lead to happiness. For instance, we complain about big rig trucks on the road. They cause traffic. Well, they deliver goods to us, such as our clothes. Be grateful on it, and dig deeper on where it originally came from. We say, “Thank you.” That is programmed in our minds, like greeting people, “Have a nice day.” Mix it up. For instance, from my family and friends, I have been receiving greetings today, “Happy Thanksgiving.” Then, I specifically message each of them, “I am very grateful to...”
11/19/2018 When somebody dies, most people regret to say goodbye. Peace be with you. I forgive you. That's my goodbye. If I am able to be at peace with others, the hatred fades. The wound heals. First and foremost, I have unleashed a natural superpower of peacefulness, and forgiveness.
11/19/2018 Whenever somebody told me their same story over and over, my younger-self would always say, "I told you so. C'mon, be aware of what you do. You should have done this..." (He or she never learns.) Now, I would tell him or her, "It is okay. Until the day I die, I continue on learning. We live in an imperfect world."
11/17/2018 In his creativity and ingenuity, Stan Lee made us picture in our minds his superheroes, such as Spiderman, Wolverine, Black Panther, and others. They had superpowers. They were out of the ordinary. Furthermore, they had human feelings. You can still be a superhero. No need for superpowers. Stan Lee is a superhero to me. He impacted my childhood, and adulthood life. He defined heroism for a very long time. Thank you, Stan Lee. Rest in peace. If I am able to at least inspire somebody in my blog, I have unleashed my superpower. I cannot be a superhero to everybody. That's impossible. For the reason that, the world population stands at about 7.7 billion people.
11/14/2018 No winner, no loser. I’m not trying to either prove a point, or choose a side. I’m at peace. You can say what you want. No more enemies. No more grudges. In the end, we are gonna die. We have no idea exactly how, when, and where we will die. We are uncertain when to say goodbye, before he or she dies. That’s normal. Most importantly, being at peace is saying goodbye to you, and everybody. No regrets. For instance, I’m glad that I came at peace to my tennis and basketball coach. A month and a half later, he passed away. Peace be with you.
11/10/2018: About an hour ago, I felt the magnitude 3.7 earthquake. 10 minutes later, it was followed by another quake with a magnitude of 2.7 I remember what my high school English teacher told me, and my classmates. She said, "I grew up in Japan. I always felt quakes. I am used to it. When I am living here in the Bay Area, it is nothing compared to Japan's quakes." According to USGS, it states, "Japan is in a very active seismic area, and they have the densest seismic network in the world, so they are able to record many earthquakes."
10/31/2018: My younger-self always wanted attention. Before I would do something, I decided if it is worthy enough as an approval of others. That was my validation. For instance, I was super happy to drive a brand new car. I heard compliments about it. This truly fed my satisfaction. Now, when I do something, it is for my approval. Attention is great, but that is not my first priority anymore. For instance, I enjoy blogging and hiking. This is my happiness.
10/29/2018: I used to be super harsh on people making mistakes. For instance, I would say something like, "They are dumb!" Now, I have come to realize that I make mistakes as well. When I criticized others, it built my confidence. It felt good. I needed something positive in me. That used to keep me going in life. I would wait for somebody to make a mistake. This is unhealthy. That was my older-self. We are imperfect people. When I make mistakes, I admit it. So, I can learn from them. If you make a mistake, you are human. You have time to grow, evolve, develop, and change. I believe in you.
10/27/2018: When I teach a person something, and the person applies it... That is my happiness. Sharing my knowledge, and passing it down. I cannot always through out what I know all at once. We are human. You gotta give us time to process, even myself. I am not Mr. Know-It-All. My purpose in life is to keep learning. I just give stories and examples now. I try to avoid giving lectures. I have done many stupid things. I admit it.
10/22/2018: Call myself a hypocrite. I am at peace. I wanna be at peace. It is tough to be like Jesus Christ. I admit it.
10/15/2018: It is normal to get angry. Acknowledge your anger, and be mindful of it.
10/12/2018: It's impossible to please everybody. It's impossible to be liked by everybody. You can either hate or like me. That's fine. Go with what you want. It's your choice. It's your life. I'm at peace. I'm focused on myself.
10/10/2018: A fresh haircut would be super nice from a barber. I gotta look good in appearance-wise, but I will save $30 a visit. My hair grows fast. $30 a month already piles up. I'm cutting a bit on my spending for now.
10/2/2018: This past week, I have been slowly cleaning my sister's room. Last night, I had a dream about my sister. Before, I had many visitation dreams about her, when she was gone. This morning, I painted her closet. Tomorrow, I am gonna finish painting her room.
9/27/2018 Before, I used to worry about others too much. It would always get in my head. I worried for others because I wanted the best of them. Most importantly, it is impossible to please everybody. Also, I realized that I wanted the best of them, but it probably was not what they wanted anyway. Actually, I ended up forcing them than being kind. I cannot control somebody's life. Now, I am focused on myself.
9/22/2018: Risk, and react.
9/20/2018 I used to force people so they can tag along with me. I hated going out alone. I used to worry about what others will think about me. Now, I don't care anymore. I like being alone. When I'm alone, I can do anything I want. No time conflicts. No rush. No need to worry about the other person. For instance, I enjoyed my solo travel experience in China and in the Philippines. I'm going to see Miguel live tonight at San Jose.
9/16/2018 My appearance used to hurt me before. I had an extremely low self-esteem when I was younger. I had huge acne on my face. I was mainly focused on others thinking about me. Now, I'm mainly focused on myself. I change, so I can impress myself, not others.
9/15/2018: More possessions, more stress. It piles up. I'm slowly decluttering my stuff. I'm learning how to let go.
9/15/2018: I continue on reading and learning. I'll only learn more, if I ever apply it. Most importantly, I need to take the risk and react. Otherwise, I'll just play it safe.
9/9/2018: "Communication is key." Not necessarily. It depends if you and the person are able to friendly communicate with each other.
9/7/2018: Things change. Accept change.
9/6/2018: Expect failure. Expect rejection. This is reality. Be aware of it, and learn from it. Let the mind know that.
8/25/2018: Trust the process. Bad things can happen. You cannot control the outcome.
8/22/2018 You witness something suspicious through your surveillance camera, while you watch Netflix. You catch a man attempting to steal your car. You panic. You realize that you have to figure out something fast without using guns. You slowly take a deep breath to stay calm. You scare him away by using your other car's remote with its "panic" button. That was me.
8/20/2018 You are focused on expectation. You see happiness from others. The mind wants that. You go on sharing your highlight reel of your life. Welcome to social media. The mind wants that. This is reality. We usually chase something whenever money is involved. Imagine if there was no money in this world. My happiness is: -To keep inspiring others, such as this blog. -To continue hiking. (Before us, nature was created.) -To keep learning. -To ask, and listen. (Hear stories from others) -To have a clean heart. (Unconditional love) -To be at peace.
8/19/2018: LOVE is just a 1-syllable, 4-letter word. L-O-V-E. Truly, it has many definitions to it. We each have a heart. That is love. A travel buddy once told me, "You gotta love yourself first, in order to love her (or anybody else)."
8/17/2018: You witness an argument with disagreements on each side. It goes back and forth, like a ping pong ball. It's crazy.
8/17/2018: A good friend asked me, "What's your purpose in life? Just focus only on yourself, not others." I answered, "That's a good question. To keep learning."
8/12/2018: I have met a lot of people through traveling, and even dating. Honestly, I cannot remember all of them one by one. It is impossible. I meet somebody. We connect. That spark at that moment. Then, time flies as the relationship goes. I reach out to them. It has been different. We grow apart from each other. It just happens. No real answer in life. No regrets in life. Lastly, it's impossible to remain in contact with everybody you know.
8/9/2018: Less talking, more listening.
8/4/2018: I heard a news from a friend, relative, or somebody. I used to go on speculating about it. Speculation goes on. Gossip and drama start. Fake news. To come and think about it, I completely wasted my energy.
8/2/2018: Before, I used to change, so I can impress others. Now, I change, so I can impress myself.
7/31/2018: No need to memorize. Go on, and improvise.
7/23/2018: You are angry at somebody. You stay away. You believe you are right. Possibly, you are waiting for that somebody to apologize. You are curious about that person. Somewhat, you do care. Perhaps, you wanna know how that person is. Therefore, you try to be better than him or her. It is what keeps you going in life. That was me before. Be a peacemaker, not a winner.
7/20/2018: It's impossible to please everybody.
7/18/2018: A great question to ask anybody, and even myself is "What is important to you?"
7/8/2018: I need space. I am human. I gotta recharge. It's not you. It's me.
7/7/2018: You are what you hear and listen.
7/3/2018: When I was younger, I wanted to fit in. I was not myself. As I am growing older, I have become more open. This is my true-self.
7/1/2018: If you have a different faith and/or religion, that's fine. Go with what you believe in. I respect you. I am pluralistic. I was baptized Catholic. From middle to high school, I went to a Catholic school. I am not a fully devoted Catholic. I am agnostic. You can say what you want on that I believe in. I am not hear to preach, please, or impress everybody. That is impossible. Toughest part in every religion and/or faith is accepting each other. Comparing others religion and/or faith makes us feel superior.
6/26/2018: My cousin asked me a question, "If you were 90 years old, would you choose to have a 30-year-old body, or a 30-year-old brain?" I answered, "The 30-year-old brain. So, I can remember moments and memories to people I have connected with. Also, I can learn more. The mind is powerful."
6/26/2018: Life is an up and down journey.
6/24/2018: Things do not go your way. You want what you want, but you can only control yourself, not others. No more pointing fingers at others. For instance, I want everybody to be at peace. Another example is I am searching for the right one, but I cannot force the lady. Respect the lady. That is selfish. Realization.
6/19/2018: No whining, no complaining. Live the lifestyle.
6/16/2018: Understanding who people are, and making adjustments.
6/14/2018: You are who you are. Be yourself. Not really. You can evolve and grow, I believe in you.
6/13/2018: My good cousin asked me, "If you saw God, what would you ask him?" I answered to him, "I would like to know how my sister is doing. Is she still at 18 years old, or is she 33 years old now? Can I please see her now?"
6/11/2018: Choose sides or not. Go with what you want. It's your choice. It's your life. I used to have many enemies. I am at peace. I have a cleaner heart than ever before. Most importantly, death brings us together with sadness. Death is arbitrary, for the reason that, most people do not want to die. You born, you live, and you die. A baby is born. It brings us together with happiness. It is a cycle of human life.
6/11/2018: My kid cousin showed me her journal about family. She wrote about family consisting of a mother, father, brothers, and sisters. Obviously, she was describing her family. I slowly read it out loud to her. I told her, "Whenever something happens to you, you have your family. This is unconditional love. We are family. You are not alone.
6/10/2018: It was 11pm. Even though my Auntie looked very tired and exhausted, she had to see her patient. I told her, "You are the real superhero, not Spider-Man. You sacrifice your time to save lives. I am inspired."
6/8/2018: Judging others makes us feel better. Observing others makes us learn better. Until the day I die, I will continue on reinventing myself.
6/5/2018: This morning, I told her, "You are a great listener. You hear everybody's stories, and even their problems. I continued on telling her, "Mix it up. I wanna really hear from you. Ask, and listen." Then, I began asking her a question.
12/19/2017: The past is remembered. Live in the moment. The future is in you.
12/14/2017: Be humble to others. Do not expect anything in return. Be your true-self.
11/27/2017: Let it be. Be free.
11/2017: No "I." It is "us."
11/2017: Do not hesitate, or else it is too late
11/2017: Respect the lady.
11/2017: Ask, and listen
11/2017: I shall see.
11/2017: Make the change, or stay the same. You choose your life. It is understanding who you are.