95) Death

​Last night, I was about to sleep, until I heard breaking news about an active gun shooter open firing his fully-automatic rifle at a music festival in Las Vegas. (At that time, the news reported 2 people dead, and about 200 injured.)

This morning, I woke up at 9:15. Then, I see a missed phone call from one of my good friends. (He called me at 8:45am.)

He brought up the gunshooting incident in Vegas.

5 days ago, he was in Vegas (for a week) to visit his former colleagues. Also, he attended a music festival, Life is Beautiful. First and foremost, 2 of his friends were at the deadliest mass shooting (in modern US history) last night. (They have not reached back to him yet.)

​My good friend told me something like, "I come out of my house, and I have thoughts in my head about death, such as a gun shooter unexpectedly kills us, then continues on killing more."

​Frankly, I was speechless. I only told him something like, "I think of that as well. We live in a crazy, scary world."

​After our phone conversation, I checked the news on TV. It reported 58 people are killed, and more than 500 injured.

This is devastating, heartbreaking, horrifying, and terrifying.

I am afraid of dying like this. In front of my eyes, I have never ever witnessed death (or any bloodshed) yet. (Back in 2003, my sister tragically, unexpectedly died. I was not there when it happened.) Again, the deadliest mass shooting in US history happened last night. I am more scared, every time I leave home.

​Yes, we are going to die eventually.

​Let's talk about a festival-goer from last night!

You are having fun at a 3-day music festival. Today is the last day.

You and your friends are drinking beer together, while you watch your favorite artist, Jason Aldean, perform. Then, you suddenly hear fireworks. You stare at the sky, and you see nothing. After all, it is not fireworks.

​You see death.

​Obviously, we just do not know when, how, and where are we going to die.

​Tomorrow, I will be seeing artist, Imagine Dragons, perform at Shoreline Amphitheatre in Mountain View, California.

Earlier today, one of my good friends invited me. She won 2 free tickets.

​Yes, I have thoughts in my head about death for tomorrow's concert.

I can tell myself, "Live in the moment."

Although, my mind is not a light switch.

I cannot completely forget about the most deadliest mass shooting in modern US history from last night. ​