At the time, I would follow what I see and hear. I just went by the program. I had no idea what I wanted. I didn't have any drive or motivation for one passion. Because my anxiety and ego would stop me.
I had doubts. I didn't believe in myself. I had a low self-esteem.
My younger-self would envision a better life by graduating from college, getting a high-paying job, buying a house, and starting a family.
This was my dream.
It's not what I wanted.
Come to think of it, my life did have a purpose. It was jealousy.
My younger-self wanted to be better than you. I hated it when you would succeed. The ego would take over my mind. It was unhealthy.
My life still has a purpose. It has changed.
It's survival now. I continue to work on my craft as well.
Find your purpose in life.