130) Loneliness

2 years ago, I was lonely. Social media took over me. It was close to Christmas. I saw happy social media posts with their loved ones. I am a single, lonely guy. I was depressed. (Last time was when my sister passed away on May 17, 2003.)

I realized that social media is usually the highlight reel of people's lives.

​I was lonely. Well, this is nothing compared to the story about loneliness. Go on, and read.

I will tell you a true story about loneliness.

I heard it during my recent Philippines trip from my cousin.

Remember, my uncle who killed my sister. A few years later, he wrote an apology letter to me and my parents. We were mourning. Our minds were not functioning. We hated him. We never replied to him.

My cousin from the Philippines told me, "Uncle was writing letters to us as well." (I have a huge family in the Philippines.)

I was in complete pause.

​Then, I told my cousin, "Uncle hated to write and read. I am surprised. Now, I have realized. He was finding any means of communication to ask for forgiveness from any loved one. He was seeking any kind of support. I fucked up. We fucked up. He suffered loneliness. Most importantly, he was looking for unconditional love. We completely shut him down. Thank you, cousin, for sharing this to me. I really appreciate it."

Uncle never received any forgiveness letters from us. Loneliness took over his life in 2008.

You already know. I have forgiven you. I am so sorry. I love you, Uncle.

Video shown below. It was my first time to visit my Uncle's gravestone, and Grandma's as well.​​​ (I have never met Grandma. She passed away from leukemia at only 41 years old.)