147) Monogamy

the state or custom of being married to one person at a time, or of having only one mate at a time
From Merriam-Webster

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I am 31 years old. So far, I only had one girlfriend.

(We dated for about 6-8 months. I was in my early 20s. We were good friends for 3-4 years before that. It took me a while to ask her out at that time. I was afraid of rejection. Also, I did not want to lose her friendship.)

The relationship with my girlfriend at that time was very exciting. I learned a lot from her. Almost everything with her was new for me, such as traveling together to Washington DC, and many more.

​(Before her, I struggled in meeting women. I had extreme social anxiety around women.)

Our relationship ended in good terms. I was young. I wanted to explore more women. I have been single for a while. (So far, I have learned a lot from dating.)

Stories of monogamy relationships from people I either have heard or seen:

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• He is dating his coworker. He has been exhausted in his relationship. He sees her almost 24/7. He hopes that he can have space to himself, once she starts school. He told me, "I lied to my girlfriend. She believes I am at home doing chores. Actually, I am not."
• He only expresses his emotions to his wife whenever he gets drunk. Now, he hardly gets drunk anymore. He works a lot. He needs time to rest than drink.
• ​He gets extremely frustrated whenever his wife does not support him. She must always be obedient to him. (Has he ever supported her decisions?)
• A man gets upset at his wife. He believes they are running late for dinner. While he drives, he raises his voice to her. He tells her, "C'mon, get your phone out to GPS our location!"   

I am talking about these stories. That way, I can be aware of it, and learn from it.

Nothing is perfect. I am not completely against monogamy. (If you wanna see a perfect monogamy, just look at social media.) I am seeking a woman, but I am in no rush.

​Monogamy relationships are tough. It is a huge challenge for me and my future girlfriend to work it together. (As usual, it is gonna be a rough ride together. We are a dynamic duo.)

In life, I will never find anybody, even my future girlfriend, that is 100% me. (It is impossible.)

To be continued...once I find her.​ ​