"The past dies, the present lives, and the future awaits."
-My High School Self graduated in 2005
(Sorry, I was not able to find my high school yearbook. No high school senior picture nor my quote, then. I will update this entry whenever I do find my yearbook.)
This quote fully described who I was as a person at that time. I will dissect this quote piece by piece.
"The past dies." My sister tragically died in 2003. When she died, mostly everything had fallen apart from me as time went ticking (and still ticking). (I assumed the past was over, then.) At this time, my mind was mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally drained. How do I see it now? To this day, I still remember the great memories (and moments) with my sister. The past is remembered. (I wrote a blog entry, "Happy Birthday, Sister."
"The present lives." At this time, my heart was constantly beating. Yes, I had intentions of committing suicide. What kept myself from being alive? I believed committing suicide is the easy way out. (I still believe it.) If I did end my life, my sister would be extremely upset. Also, I thought about my family, friends, and relatives. I will hurt them. How do I see it now? Enjoy every moment being alive (if you can). Life is tough though. Live in the present.
"The future awaits." I have nothing planned for my future. I had no idea what I wanted to do after high school. So, I pursued taking civil engineering. (This is what my dad wanted me to take.) You must start on a plan asap, or else time flies. Why, so? I finally graduated from college earlier this year from Environmental Studies with a concentration of Energy Management and Design. (I will pursue this career some time next year.) How do I see it now? The future is unwritten. The future is in you. (I sound like the Gatorade slogan, "It is in you?") You choose your future, like my PE high school coach said, "Life is all about choices."
My high school senior quote has been updated from my present-self quoting,
"The past is remembered. Live in the present. The future is in you."
(Present-self picture will be posted until I find my yearbook. Comparing myself from then and now.)