74) Nervousness

​To this day, I still get nervous every day. It runs in my blood. (The jitters never die. They come and go.)

Why do you get nervous?

I tend to overthink before I do something.

Why, so? I want to be perfect.

When did your "nervousness" begin?

​Back in the day, I was shy and quiet (and even sensitive). I took things too seriously. (I was more concerned about others thinking about me than myself. Honestly, I still do but it is not worst as before.) For instance, my classmates laughed at me in a good way, but I was harsh about it. How harsh? I do not want to be friends with them.

​In life, the toughest part is from being uncomfortable to being comfortable. I have improved my jitters than ever before. (I take more risks than ever before. There is a progress.)

​Before I encounter an uncomfortable situation, the tension builds up.

Here a list of my nervousness (off the top of my head):
​- Before I attend my work's staff meeting every week. (I get intimidated. I must always remind myself to never compare myself to others.)
- Before I meet new people. (For example, it took me a while to finally meet an attractive lady at my cousin's wedding.)
​- Before I start my tennis clinic or lesson
​- Before I begin filming myself for a vlog
​- Before I go on a first date

Basically, I get nervous around new people (or people better than me in experience-wise). To this day, my biggest fear is dying alone (a future blog post idea to write about), and especially, anything public speaking-related.   

How do I handle uncomfortable situations, such as going on a first date?

Always come prepared the night before.

For instance, I cannot take a lady out on a date without any planning. (She might think I am a serial killer or something.) Be optimistic. For instance, she is interested in me because she is willing to go on a date with me.

Before my first date starts, take a deep breath. Acknowledge her my nervousness. (She knows I have no ego, then. It is great to be honest. I do not want to be a hotshot.) From here, my nervousness fades away.

​How can I overcome my nervousness?

Obviously, the only way is to take the risk, or else I will never ever change. (Again, I take more risks than ever before.)

How can I get better in dealing my nervousness? My one word answer is repetition.          

​If my nervousness has conquered everything in me, I would not be the person who I am today. Most importantly, I am glad that I still get nervous to this day. So, I can challenge myself to keep becoming a better person until the day I die.