163) What If...

I used to live life with regrets. (It haunted me.)

Negative thoughts appeared on my mind every day. (List shown below.)

WHAT IF...

• I went with my sister on the night of her tragic death in 2003?
• I had forgiven my Uncle for killing my sister before he committed suicide in 2008?
• I called Coach Willie to hangout on the day of his death in 2018?​​

I wished I had any type of superpower abilities to bring them back to life. 

What if I died from my severe head injury in 1996? (I was in a coma for about 2-3 days.)

I would not have suffered from losing my sister, Uncle, and Coach. My family, friends, and relatives will be grieving and mourning my death. ("The tables have turned.") 

I cannot escape from feelings. I build meaningful relationships and connections with people. (It is in our human nature.) We are going to die tragically, happily, intentionally, and/or accordingly. (Who knows?) A loved one will be missed. You're born, you live, and you die.

I have accepted the death of my sister, Uncle, and Coach. I can say whatever I want. At the end of the day, they are gone. I cannot control the outcome.

​I remember my sister, Uncle, and Coach. (The past is remembered.) They are in my heart and mind. (Live in the moment.) I have grown mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually as a person than ever before. (The future is in me.)

Thank you - Marrianne, Uncle Romel, and Coach Willie.