1) Where Am I At Now?

​3 hours ago, I was supposed to write my first ever blog. Procrastination at its finest. It goes with the common saying, "Ya snooze, ya lose," yet I will continue typing this blog.

Do not be alarmed by the photo above, apparently, the look in my face on this photo sums up where I am right now.

​One of my close friends asked me, "As your good friend, what are you doing in your life?" Go with what makes you happy.

Pondering, then forgetting. For example, I would want to become a tennis coach, since I was inspired by Coach Willie. As his tennis student and player from 2008-2015, I learned a lot from him. Then I would tell others, and even myself, "I cannot do it because I have no college tennis experience. Heck, I failed the tennis tryouts at Sonoma State University, back in 2010. I am just not good enough." I would ignore (not completely) about it, then I would continually work on non-related jobs, like merchandising.

​It is impossible to completely forget something meaningful, unless you hire a doctor to erase a part of your memory, like how Kate Winslet, who plays a character as Clementine, in the movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind." This is only a movie though. In this day and age, through this technology age, who knows that might be invented.

​Truly, as I grow older, I do not want to be that guy with regrets. YouTuber, Prince Ea, raps, documents, explains, and records his video, "EVERYBODY DIES, BUT NOT EVERYBODY LIVES," about living the life, before you die. I want to be that old guy saying, "At least I tried."

Pondering, and finally committing. Currently, I am an assistant coach for American Canyon High school boys' tennis team. The head coach is Eric Jackson, who had played for Napa Valley College and Fresno State, and was a top-level USPTA teaching pro for seven years. A good start for now. Their season tips off this February. Right now, we are training this offseason.

​Needless to say, it took me forever to start pursuing my passion. The past was the past...is too generic, since I lost my sister 13 years ago from a tragedy. Focus on the present, and take it step-by-step. Easy to say, but the toughest part is to stay focused mentally, physically, and spiritually day-by-day. I have been reading motivating, life-lessoning, and decision-making books.

​Importantly, can I continually make "it" happen?

​On the other hand, I studied at SSU, and I graduated from a BS degree in Environmental Studies and Planning with a concentration in Energy Management and Design; such as David Ly Khim writes an article, Your College Degree Does Not Define You: A First-Hand Experience.

​Back in high school, my PE Coach, Marlon Blanton, once told me and my fellow classmates, "Life is all about choices." Actually, it was told many times. At that time, I did not take it seriously. Honestly, life is all about choices. Thank you, Coach.
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A challenge happening.